I have just complained myself into a horrible funk! I don't like being in a funk. So I am going to really make an effort to be positive. I really feel like something has to change, and I really have a lot of options but I am just not sure what I am going to do.
Update: on my weight loss goal for while Dan is gone!!!
I started at 146.7 and now I am 147!!! wait... crap, that means I have gained weight. oops. I'm really not that worried about it, I probably drank a glass of water before I stepped on the scale.
I was offered a job today!!
It's with my arch-nemisis, ***** ****. I would make enough to pay someone to watch my kids... and I really think my kids need a change of scenery. I hate the thought of leaving Kat. I really think it would be good for the older kids, and it would probably be good for me too. The only problem is I really would be taking another BIG bite of humble pie.
I would definently be able to make some money... but I would HATE to tell anyone where I worked.
I really think the reason I am getting in this huge funk, is because I am getting antsy about the deployment coming up. Dan just starting to be gone for his work up, already I am feeling trapped in my house, tied down with kids. Doing the same chores over and over and over... I adore my kids, and I am really thankful for this time with them. But it is hard for both the kids and I to not have a break from the monotony.
I think I am going to do it... I think I am going to get a part time job, If it doesn't work, I will quit :) My other options would include: going back to school, moving across country to be near family, gaining a lot of weight then trying out for the show biggest loser... really... I'm young I could do anything.... I could even start a letter writing campaign for a ridiculous cause.... ooohhhh
Seriously this has been the STUPIDEST blog ever... so I really hope you didn't waste your time and read all the way to the bottom. Anyone want to come over for late night, kids are in bed margaritas???