I have just complained myself into a horrible funk! I don't like being in a funk. So I am going to really make an effort to be positive. I really feel like something has to change, and I really have a lot of options but I am just not sure what I am going to do.
Update: on my weight loss goal for while Dan is gone!!!
I started at 146.7 and now I am 147!!! wait... crap, that means I have gained weight. oops. I'm really not that worried about it, I probably drank a glass of water before I stepped on the scale.
I was offered a job today!!
It's with my arch-nemisis, ***** ****. I would make enough to pay someone to watch my kids... and I really think my kids need a change of scenery. I hate the thought of leaving Kat. I really think it would be good for the older kids, and it would probably be good for me too. The only problem is I really would be taking another BIG bite of humble pie.
I would definently be able to make some money... but I would HATE to tell anyone where I worked.
Smellin funky
I really think the reason I am getting in this huge funk, is because I am getting antsy about the deployment coming up. Dan just starting to be gone for his work up, already I am feeling trapped in my house, tied down with kids. Doing the same chores over and over and over... I adore my kids, and I am really thankful for this time with them. But it is hard for both the kids and I to not have a break from the monotony.
I think I am going to do it... I think I am going to get a part time job, If it doesn't work, I will quit :) My other options would include: going back to school, moving across country to be near family, gaining a lot of weight then trying out for the show biggest loser... really... I'm young I could do anything.... I could even start a letter writing campaign for a ridiculous cause.... ooohhhh
Seriously this has been the STUPIDEST blog ever... so I really hope you didn't waste your time and read all the way to the bottom. Anyone want to come over for late night, kids are in bed margaritas???
Congrats on the job offer!!!! But u must tell me where? Is it the Walmart salon?!?
ReplyDeleteAll that ur feeling with the upcoming deployment is ALL normal feelings, but u'll make it through it, ur a tough cookie!
And there is never a pointless blog! Don't u know that by reading mine!
Yay for job offers! Boo for being bored. There are a lot of volunteer opportunities that reimburse for childcare or at least a portion of childcare. LINKS, FRV, and NMCRS to name a few.
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